Wendesday Lyrics - yes I'm late AGAIN! :)
Beautiful Boy
Celine Dion
Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful Boy
Close your eyes, Have no fear, The monster's gone,
he's on the run and your mummy's here.
Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful Boy,
Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful Boy.
Before you go to sleep, Say a little prayer,
Every day in every way, it's getting better and better,
Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful Boy (Beautiful boy),
Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful Boy.
Out on the ocean, sailing away I can hardly wait
To see you come of age But I guess we'll both just have to be patient
Cause it's a long way to go, a hard row to hoe
Yes it's a long way to go, but in the meantime...
Before you cross the street, Take my hand,
Life is just what happens to you while you're busy making other plans...
Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful Boy(Beautiful boy),
Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful Boy (Boooooooy)
Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful Boy,
Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful Boy,
Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful Boy,
Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful Boy,
Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful Boy....
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
Wednesday Lyrics
A Mother's Prayer - Celine Dion
I pray you'll be my eyes
And watch her where she goes
And help her to be wise
Help me to let go
Every mother's prayer
Every child knows
Lead her to a place
Guide her with your grace
To a place where she'll be safe
I pray she finds your light
And holds it in her heart
As darkness falls each night
Remind her where you are
Every mother's prayer
Every child knows
Need to find a place
Guide her with your grace
Give her faith so she'll be safe
Lead her to a place
Guide her with your grace
To a place where she'll be safe
A Mother's Prayer - Celine Dion
I pray you'll be my eyes
And watch her where she goes
And help her to be wise
Help me to let go
Every mother's prayer
Every child knows
Lead her to a place
Guide her with your grace
To a place where she'll be safe
I pray she finds your light
And holds it in her heart
As darkness falls each night
Remind her where you are
Every mother's prayer
Every child knows
Need to find a place
Guide her with your grace
Give her faith so she'll be safe
Lead her to a place
Guide her with your grace
To a place where she'll be safe
Monday, January 29, 2007
Our Trip To London - Jan 24th, 2007
Last week Skylar had an appointment in London to meet with the specialist and plastic surgeon to take a look at her finger. They said it was healing nicely on it's own and they are not going to do anything for it. That in a few weeks it'll be healed over. In the future her finger will be a little bit shorter and flatter, but by the time she starts school you won't be able to know there was an injury unless you were looking for it. So that is good news, they want to see her again on Feb 14th (guess how I'm spending Valentines Day) (that is if she is still with us). They just want to make sure it is still healing properly.
We were going to leave Chance at a family members house and not bring him to this appointment because he has been really traumatized by the whole incident (and the incident the week before with the stitches). But then we realized they are not going to be doing much for her and that it'll be a quick appointment so we decided to turn this into a mini-vacation! We went to London the day before, got a hotel (with a pool of course), and just hung out. This was Chance's first time staying at a hotel. He had his OWN queen size bed. We were telling Chance about the hotel and how it has a pool. So we carried everything we could in the first trip and we were going to make a second trip but as soon as we walked into the room Chance started to take his clothes off and wanted to go swimming NOW! So we all went. Then we came back to room, had showers, and we ordered Pizza to our hotel room, it's been over a year since we ordered a pizza to be delivered! (They don't deliver to the country. Well technically they do BUT it's a $20 delivery charge!!!). After dinner we put Skylar to bed and Chance and Andrew went for another swim before bed.
Wednesday morning we got up early and headed to the children's hospital for 8:30am. We were in and out in about 10 minutes. We went back to the hotel for another swim, and then packed up.
From there we went to London's Children Museum. We were there just over 2 hours and the kids had a BLAST! There was so much for them to do and play. Man, I wish I didn't forget the camera!!! I guess we are going to have to go back again with the camera. lol. I still want to take the to the Guelph Children's Museum some day. My sister says it's really good there, maybe in the summer time we'll take a day trip out there.
Last week Skylar had an appointment in London to meet with the specialist and plastic surgeon to take a look at her finger. They said it was healing nicely on it's own and they are not going to do anything for it. That in a few weeks it'll be healed over. In the future her finger will be a little bit shorter and flatter, but by the time she starts school you won't be able to know there was an injury unless you were looking for it. So that is good news, they want to see her again on Feb 14th (guess how I'm spending Valentines Day) (that is if she is still with us). They just want to make sure it is still healing properly.
We were going to leave Chance at a family members house and not bring him to this appointment because he has been really traumatized by the whole incident (and the incident the week before with the stitches). But then we realized they are not going to be doing much for her and that it'll be a quick appointment so we decided to turn this into a mini-vacation! We went to London the day before, got a hotel (with a pool of course), and just hung out. This was Chance's first time staying at a hotel. He had his OWN queen size bed. We were telling Chance about the hotel and how it has a pool. So we carried everything we could in the first trip and we were going to make a second trip but as soon as we walked into the room Chance started to take his clothes off and wanted to go swimming NOW! So we all went. Then we came back to room, had showers, and we ordered Pizza to our hotel room, it's been over a year since we ordered a pizza to be delivered! (They don't deliver to the country. Well technically they do BUT it's a $20 delivery charge!!!). After dinner we put Skylar to bed and Chance and Andrew went for another swim before bed.
Wednesday morning we got up early and headed to the children's hospital for 8:30am. We were in and out in about 10 minutes. We went back to the hotel for another swim, and then packed up.
From there we went to London's Children Museum. We were there just over 2 hours and the kids had a BLAST! There was so much for them to do and play. Man, I wish I didn't forget the camera!!! I guess we are going to have to go back again with the camera. lol. I still want to take the to the Guelph Children's Museum some day. My sister says it's really good there, maybe in the summer time we'll take a day trip out there.
Sunday, January 28, 2007
Snow time
9:41am - start to get the kids and my self ready for play time outside
10:03am - snow pants, coat, boots, scarfs, mitts and hat are on mommy, Chance and Skylar. (yes it takes 22minutes to do that!)
10:06am Chance has to go pee!!!!!!!!! Back in the house.
10:07am have him stripped off outside clothes (he REALLY HAD TO GO...) When you have a kid crying he has to pee yo move pretty quick.
10:09am start the process of bundling up again
10:12am outside again for more play time.
10:40am Chance has to pee again!! Play time over - time to come inside for some hot chocolate! Really don't want to do the whole snow suit thing AGAIN!!!!!! lol Plus it was pretty cold.
Then Daddy comes home from work - we have dinner and then we went sledding! Chance had a blast going down the hill, Skylar liked it too. Heck, so did mommy and daddy! Can't wait until we can go again. It's just so much work getting everyone bundled up to go outside. lol Even though it's worth it to watch them out laughing, playing and throwing snowballs.
Thursday, January 25, 2007
Love Thursday
I was trying to think what I should do for Love Thursday today, and no sooner did I hear Chance saying "Skylar come cuddle Chance" and he comes in with a blanket and laid on the floor holding the blanket up telling Skylar to come cuddle. This is a regular occurance as whenever Chance is sitting on the floor or couch Skylar always just sits herself down on Chance's lap and Chance will put his arms around her and they will sit like that until Skyar gets bored. Now of course I couldn't find my camera quick enough to catch todays picture, but I did find another picture. This one is with Chance's new couch that he got from my parents for his birthday. It never fails that when Chance is sitting in it Skylar will come and sit right beside him. It won't be uncommon for Chance to go and get a blanket to wrap them both up.
Wednesday Lyrics (yes I know it's thursday) is...
Let them be Little - Billy Dean
I can remember when you fit in the palm of my hand
Felt so good in it, no bigger than a minute
How it amazes me, you're changing with every blink
Faster than a flower blooms they grow up all too soon
So let them be little 'cause they're only that way for a while
Give them hope, give them praise, give them love every day
Let them cry, let them giggle, let them sleep in the middle
Oh just let them be little
I've never felt so much in one little tender touch
I live for those kisses, prayers and your wishes
Now that you're teaching me things only a child can see
Every night while we're on our knees all I ask is please
Let them be little 'cause they're only that way for a while
Give them hope, give them praise, give them love every day
Let them cry, let them giggle, let them sleep in the middle
Oh just let them be little
So innocent, a precious soul, you turn around
It's time to let them go
So let them be little 'cause they're only that way for a while
Give them hope, give them praise, give them love every day
Let them cry, let them giggle, let them sleep in the middle
Oh just let them be little Let them be little
Let them be Little - Billy Dean
I can remember when you fit in the palm of my hand
Felt so good in it, no bigger than a minute
How it amazes me, you're changing with every blink
Faster than a flower blooms they grow up all too soon
So let them be little 'cause they're only that way for a while
Give them hope, give them praise, give them love every day
Let them cry, let them giggle, let them sleep in the middle
Oh just let them be little
I've never felt so much in one little tender touch
I live for those kisses, prayers and your wishes
Now that you're teaching me things only a child can see
Every night while we're on our knees all I ask is please
Let them be little 'cause they're only that way for a while
Give them hope, give them praise, give them love every day
Let them cry, let them giggle, let them sleep in the middle
Oh just let them be little
So innocent, a precious soul, you turn around
It's time to let them go
So let them be little 'cause they're only that way for a while
Give them hope, give them praise, give them love every day
Let them cry, let them giggle, let them sleep in the middle
Oh just let them be little Let them be little
Saturday, January 20, 2007
Bittersweet
In the last few months I have been visiting some different adoption blogs and reading about other people stories in adoption from all angles of the triad. One fellow blogger wrote an article awhile back that really hit home for me and it's titled Bittersweet. You can check out her (Coley's) blog here: http://open.adoptionblogs.com/weblogs/bittersweet If you look what Webster says about bittersweet, you'll find this: bit•ter•sweetPronunciation: 'bi-t&r-"swEtFunction: noun1 : something that is bittersweet; especially : pleasure alloyed with pain. I have thought about many things that I am excited to share with my son (the sweet part), but at the same time the things that I am rejoicing over is Carrie's (bitter) loss.
Examples
Chance with croup (really serious Nov of 2005)
it's bitter for Carrie as she was not able to hold her son and comfort him in the hospital
it's sweet for me as I held him and soothed him to sleep.
Chance's first bike
it's bitter for Carrie b/c she is not able to buy the bike or watch him learn to ride
it's sweet for me b/c I get to experience this and cheer him on
Chance's adoption day
it's bitter for Carrie as she lost her rights to her son
it's was sweet for me b/c I got the son I so depertatly wanted
Chance's birthday
it's bitter for Carrie b/c she missed his birthday
it's sweet for me b/c I got to plan and be present for his birthday
Being a Mommy
it's bitter for Carrie as she can't parent her son
it's sweet for me b/c I am able to be a mommy
This are just a few examples that while I am happy to be able to experiences I can't help but think about Carrie and her feelings. So days that are "sweet" for me, I know there is always a "bitter". Those are the days where Carrie gets a few extra prayers. Why am I finally writing this post now? I wa supposesed to be written on Monday but with everything that happened with Skylar it got put on the side burner. But on Sunday it was a bittersweet day for me. On Sunday Jan14th, 2007 was the day that Chance was placed with us 2 years ago. I woke up thinking back on the past 2 years of sweet memories and 2 years of being a mommy, it also brought back all the things that Carrie will never be able to experience. So to me Sunday was a bittersweet day.
The picture posted from Jan 14th 2005 the first day Chance came to live with us (sweet) and the last day Carrie got to parent Chance (bitter).
Thursday, January 18, 2007
Love Thursday - Picture taken June 2006
I got this idea from a few of the blogs that I've been reading about adoption and what the concept is that every Thursday a picture will get posted, and something little written about what Love is seen in the picture.
***Love is handing a bottle to two of your foster children (age 7 and 8 months) who are more then capable to hold their own bottles and having your son take the bottles to hold it for them.***
This picture was taken in the parking lot of Fairview Mall, we were out all day and I gave Skylar and Damian their bottles while I loaded the trunk, then when they were done their bottle we were out for a long car ride to visit some friends.
When will this NIGHTMARE end?
Just when you think things can't get any worse THEY DO! We took Skylar on Friday to get her stitches out - that was a fun experience. I have never seen anyone shake as much as the doctors hands were! I probably could have done a better job! We then spent the weekend at my parents place with the kids so I can attend my nephews (Jonathan's) baptism. We left on Monday and got home about 2pm. I had went to bed and at 2:20 I heard everyone screaming and Andrew came into my room screaming that Lucky (our rabbit) had bitten Skylars finger off and all I see is blood over the place. I jump out of bed and we tried looking for the finger in the cage but can't find it anywhere! I call 9-1-1 and which seemed like forever they came and drove past our house. I ran out and couldn't find the ambulance anywhere. Then I see it come up from a side street and I'm standing out there holding Skylar and her finger above her head and trying to wave the ambulance that had just stopped in the middle of the road trying to figure out where they were (down side of living in the country!)
We get to the hospital and the doctor comes in takes a quick looks and says he's not even going to touch that one and walked out of the room! He calls the upper body and hand specialist in London but they only deal with adults. so he calls children hospital in London and they said they will see her. So they come and bandage her hand and sends up home telling up we'll be London tomorrow that we'll get a call in morning.
By 11:30am I haven't heard anything to I called the hospital to find out info as to who we were suppose be seeing and basically I was given the run around all day until I finally spoke with the receptionist at the hospital in London (at 5:30!!) who said that Skylar will be seen NEXT WEDNESDAY! 9 days after she has her finger tip bit OFF we are to do nothing. When I asked what to do about after care as the doctor told us not to change the bandage as the doctor in London will do it. They had no idea what to do about the after care and told me to call the hospitals and ask them what to do. I called them, and they tell me to call the family doctor. GRR! We saw the doctor Wednesday morning as we didn't think it's right that a 15month old baby has to wait 9 days with her fingertip (there is only a sliver of fingernail left) off! But her family dr. called and spoke directly to the doctor she is to see in London and he thought she could wait. he then called a plastic surgeon to get a second opinion and he also though she could wait. Do I think she should wait? NO! Still doesn’t seem fair. Now we have to clean and rewrap her hand everyday and watch for infection.
And after the mandatary 10 day quarrateen of Lucky he will be put down! I could have left him at the vet for the 10 days but it's $30 a day (so that's $300 plus tax - then another $80 to put him down). So I took him home as much as I didn't want too. But he is now in our bedroom and kids are not allowed in there!
Talk about feeling the world's worst parents! YES I know accidents happened, it wasn't our fault, it wasn't even Lucky's fault. I just won't be able to trust him. But I just want to wake up from this nightmare. And Andrew won't let me post pictures! LOL He didn't even want me to take the picture!
And I thought the "mommy guilt" was bad enough with the stitches her in face (which is healy nicely BTW)
Just when you think things can't get any worse THEY DO! We took Skylar on Friday to get her stitches out - that was a fun experience. I have never seen anyone shake as much as the doctors hands were! I probably could have done a better job! We then spent the weekend at my parents place with the kids so I can attend my nephews (Jonathan's) baptism. We left on Monday and got home about 2pm. I had went to bed and at 2:20 I heard everyone screaming and Andrew came into my room screaming that Lucky (our rabbit) had bitten Skylars finger off and all I see is blood over the place. I jump out of bed and we tried looking for the finger in the cage but can't find it anywhere! I call 9-1-1 and which seemed like forever they came and drove past our house. I ran out and couldn't find the ambulance anywhere. Then I see it come up from a side street and I'm standing out there holding Skylar and her finger above her head and trying to wave the ambulance that had just stopped in the middle of the road trying to figure out where they were (down side of living in the country!)
We get to the hospital and the doctor comes in takes a quick looks and says he's not even going to touch that one and walked out of the room! He calls the upper body and hand specialist in London but they only deal with adults. so he calls children hospital in London and they said they will see her. So they come and bandage her hand and sends up home telling up we'll be London tomorrow that we'll get a call in morning.
By 11:30am I haven't heard anything to I called the hospital to find out info as to who we were suppose be seeing and basically I was given the run around all day until I finally spoke with the receptionist at the hospital in London (at 5:30!!) who said that Skylar will be seen NEXT WEDNESDAY! 9 days after she has her finger tip bit OFF we are to do nothing. When I asked what to do about after care as the doctor told us not to change the bandage as the doctor in London will do it. They had no idea what to do about the after care and told me to call the hospitals and ask them what to do. I called them, and they tell me to call the family doctor. GRR! We saw the doctor Wednesday morning as we didn't think it's right that a 15month old baby has to wait 9 days with her fingertip (there is only a sliver of fingernail left) off! But her family dr. called and spoke directly to the doctor she is to see in London and he thought she could wait. he then called a plastic surgeon to get a second opinion and he also though she could wait. Do I think she should wait? NO! Still doesn’t seem fair. Now we have to clean and rewrap her hand everyday and watch for infection.
And after the mandatary 10 day quarrateen of Lucky he will be put down! I could have left him at the vet for the 10 days but it's $30 a day (so that's $300 plus tax - then another $80 to put him down). So I took him home as much as I didn't want too. But he is now in our bedroom and kids are not allowed in there!
Talk about feeling the world's worst parents! YES I know accidents happened, it wasn't our fault, it wasn't even Lucky's fault. I just won't be able to trust him. But I just want to wake up from this nightmare. And Andrew won't let me post pictures! LOL He didn't even want me to take the picture!
And I thought the "mommy guilt" was bad enough with the stitches her in face (which is healy nicely BTW)
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
I'm going to be posting some songs that I really like (that relate somehow to children) that mean something to me. Right now Watching You is my favourite song they are playing on the radio. It makes you stop to think how much kids are watching you. Even when you don't think they are, or you don't think they hear the words you say. They are ALWAYS watching you (and listening) as you are moulding their formative years. I really like this picture because it shows just how much Chance is watching us.
Watching You - Rodney Atkins
Driving through town just my boy and me
With a happy meal in his booster seat
Knowing that he couldn't have the toy
Till his nuggets were gone
Green traffic light turned straight to red
I hit my breaks and mumbled under my breath
As fries went a flying and his orange drink covered his lap
Well then my four year old said a four letter word
That started with "s" and I was concerned
So I said son now where did you learn to talk like that
[Chorus one]
He said I've been watching you dad, ain't that cool
I'm your buckaroo, I wanna be like you
And eat all my food and grow as tall as you are
We got cowboy boots and camo pants
Yeah we're just alike, hey ain't we dad
I wanna do everything you do
So I've been watching you
We got back home and I went to the barn
I bowed my head and I prayed real hard
Said lord please help me help my stupid self
Then this side of bedtime later that night
Turning on my son's scooby doo nightlight
He crawled out of bed and he got down on his knees
He closed his little eyes, folded his little hands
And spoke to God like he was talking to a friend
And I said son where'd you learn to pray like that
[Chorus two]
He said I've been watching you dad, ain't that cool
I'm your buckaroo, I wanna be like you
And eat all my food and grow as tall as you are
We like fixing things and holding mama's hand
Yeah we're just alike, hey ain't we dad
I wanna do everything you do
So I've been watching you
[Bridge]
With tears in my eyes I wrapped him in a hug
Said my little bear is growing up
He said but when I'm big I'll still know what to do
[Chorus three]
Cause I've been watching you dad, ain't that cool
I'm your buckaroo, I wanna be like you
And eat all my food and grow as tall as you are
Then I'll be as strong as you and superman
We'll be just alike, hey won't we dad
When I can do everything you do
Cause I've been watching you
Watching You - Rodney Atkins
Driving through town just my boy and me
With a happy meal in his booster seat
Knowing that he couldn't have the toy
Till his nuggets were gone
Green traffic light turned straight to red
I hit my breaks and mumbled under my breath
As fries went a flying and his orange drink covered his lap
Well then my four year old said a four letter word
That started with "s" and I was concerned
So I said son now where did you learn to talk like that
[Chorus one]
He said I've been watching you dad, ain't that cool
I'm your buckaroo, I wanna be like you
And eat all my food and grow as tall as you are
We got cowboy boots and camo pants
Yeah we're just alike, hey ain't we dad
I wanna do everything you do
So I've been watching you
We got back home and I went to the barn
I bowed my head and I prayed real hard
Said lord please help me help my stupid self
Then this side of bedtime later that night
Turning on my son's scooby doo nightlight
He crawled out of bed and he got down on his knees
He closed his little eyes, folded his little hands
And spoke to God like he was talking to a friend
And I said son where'd you learn to pray like that
[Chorus two]
He said I've been watching you dad, ain't that cool
I'm your buckaroo, I wanna be like you
And eat all my food and grow as tall as you are
We like fixing things and holding mama's hand
Yeah we're just alike, hey ain't we dad
I wanna do everything you do
So I've been watching you
[Bridge]
With tears in my eyes I wrapped him in a hug
Said my little bear is growing up
He said but when I'm big I'll still know what to do
[Chorus three]
Cause I've been watching you dad, ain't that cool
I'm your buckaroo, I wanna be like you
And eat all my food and grow as tall as you are
Then I'll be as strong as you and superman
We'll be just alike, hey won't we dad
When I can do everything you do
Cause I've been watching you
Mommy Guilt
Why is it that Mommy's always feel guilty? There is always something, every day that really hits me! This week has been the fact I had take a 15 month old BABY to get 15 stitches to her face. And since I was the one in charge of her I feel guilty! She is such a pretty little baby who may now grow up with a big scar on her face!
Why is it that Mommy's always feel guilty? There is always something, every day that really hits me! This week has been the fact I had take a 15 month old BABY to get 15 stitches to her face. And since I was the one in charge of her I feel guilty! She is such a pretty little baby who may now grow up with a big scar on her face!
What a weekend! (part 1)
Friday afternoon we went to see Andrew's Grandma who lives on a farm for a little visit. And as always, Chance's highlight was the cows! Skylar was a little unsure at first with all the noises they were making but she warmed up to them. Last time we were there we saw a calf that was born (we missed the first by about 10 minutes) but Chance remembered the baby and wanted to see it, but the door was locked. Andrew's uncle was in there and he took time from his chores to show Chance where Milk comes from and would try to spray Chance with the milk which he thought was just so funny. Then Friday night Andrew and I actually got to go on a date! It's been way too long. We went to Montana's for dinner, then to see the movie Pursuit of Happiness. (Very Good Movie!). While a family member watched the kids for us. We all slept over there Friday night. Saturday morning we went to my friends house for Saturday and Sunday. I think the kids had fun - although I think we did more refereeing then anything. A 3 and 5 year old both with stubborn personalities trying to play together.. LOL.. Although to give them credit they did very well with being with each other for 2 full days, and even sharing a room! I think the kids had a blast. (although my next post will be about an incident with Skylar that required in a trip to the emerg.) Then Sunday night at 10pm Andrew came and picked us all up to take us to a family members house where Andrew and the kids slept while I went to work. We all got back home around 1:30 on Monday afternoon. It was crazy but we all had a great time (except Andrew who had to work the whole weekend).
Friday afternoon we went to see Andrew's Grandma who lives on a farm for a little visit. And as always, Chance's highlight was the cows! Skylar was a little unsure at first with all the noises they were making but she warmed up to them. Last time we were there we saw a calf that was born (we missed the first by about 10 minutes) but Chance remembered the baby and wanted to see it, but the door was locked. Andrew's uncle was in there and he took time from his chores to show Chance where Milk comes from and would try to spray Chance with the milk which he thought was just so funny. Then Friday night Andrew and I actually got to go on a date! It's been way too long. We went to Montana's for dinner, then to see the movie Pursuit of Happiness. (Very Good Movie!). While a family member watched the kids for us. We all slept over there Friday night. Saturday morning we went to my friends house for Saturday and Sunday. I think the kids had fun - although I think we did more refereeing then anything. A 3 and 5 year old both with stubborn personalities trying to play together.. LOL.. Although to give them credit they did very well with being with each other for 2 full days, and even sharing a room! I think the kids had a blast. (although my next post will be about an incident with Skylar that required in a trip to the emerg.) Then Sunday night at 10pm Andrew came and picked us all up to take us to a family members house where Andrew and the kids slept while I went to work. We all got back home around 1:30 on Monday afternoon. It was crazy but we all had a great time (except Andrew who had to work the whole weekend).
Poor Skylar! 12 Stitches to the face (Part 2)
We were at my friend Jenn's house and I was playing catch with a ball with Skylar when she went to throw the ball, but she ended up turning around too quickly and lost her balance and hit her head on the coffee table. There was blood EVERYWHERE as my friend Jenn and I were trying to figure out where she was bleeding from. I couldn't tell if she was bleeding on the inside or the outside. So after a minute we were able to clear the blood from the front and saw the big gash. So I ran out and hooked up the car seat, threw her in and off to emerg. It was there that I realized that he bottom teeth had pierced her lip - to the point if I wasn't paying attention she would stick her pinkie THROUGH the front and play with her TONGUE! That had to be the grossest thing ever. So even though I go in with a 15 month old baby with a hole in her face, they still make us wait in the waiting room for an hour and 20 minutes! I couldn't believe it! I can see making someone older wait as it's not an life or death emergency, but the triage nurse actually saw her stick her finger through! I didn't even get anything for pain for Skylar!
We finally get back and the doctor sees us and she ends up with 12 stitches. 7 on the outside and 5 on the inside. We have to go back on Friday to have them removed. But my goodness they didn't even give her anything to make her sleepy or anything. They took a fully awake Skylar and laid her on the bed, wrapped her tight and a nurse pretty much laid on her, then they put these towels over hear head and neck so the only showing is her mouth and nose and starting stabbing her with the needle. It was then when I just started crying with her. The doctor told me I could wait in the waiting room until they were done, but there was NO WAY I was leaving her. I got myself together once she stopped crying and I knew she couldn't feel it anymore, but she still kept whimpering, but I just kept singing to her and she remained calm. And as soon as they sat her up to unwrap her she jumped in my arms and just hung on close! So the nurse tried to take the blanket off with her legs wrapped around me! Since then she hasn't experiences much pain except for the first night when she would try to drink and she would put the cup to her face too quickly and hit her lip, but she learned to be careful and has been find since.
These pictures were taken 2 days after and the swelling has gone down more then half. On the right you can see some of the yellow stitches on the inside.
Thursday, January 04, 2007
We're losing out little girl...
It seems with the way things are going that Skylar might actually be going home soon. The agancy are still trying to terminate mom's parental rights, but mom has had a transformation and has now started going to ALL visits and staying the WHOLE 2 hours. I now have the feeling that she'll be going home in the next month or two. We are just waiting to get a court date which should be in the next few weeks. I don't know how we can handle this loss, esp. when we know she WON'T be returned to a "good" home, and will most likely be back in care, or messed up. They are 4 judges in family court, one judge almost always sides with the family, one judge almost always sides with the agancy, and there are 2 judges that actually listen to the case and then makes a decision. So it all depends on what judge we get! Pretty sad eh?
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
Can I have an orange?
This morning when I came home from work and Andrew was getting ready to leave with the kids to take Skylar for a visit Chance asked me if he could have an organge. I figured why not he had a few minutes before he was going to get loaded and it was just a small tangerine. So I started peeling it when he pipes in "Daddy said no orange". So I stop and ask him if he asked Daddy for an orange, he said yes, I asked him if daddy said no, and he said yes. So I went and found Andrew to confirm that he said no to an orange - which he did (why I have no idea as he had plenty of time). So I had to come back and explain to Chance that when mommy or daddy says no to something - that doesn't mean he can ask the other one. That since he did that, he was not allowed to have the orange and he needed to obey Daddy.
Little does he know - if he would have kept quiet about it he would have had the orange. I already had it peeled, I was breaking it up to give it to him, and he would have been LONG done his orange before Daddy came to get him to load up in the car. but I am sure that is a trick he'll learn soon enough. All kids play thier parents against each other, he just needs to learn not to tell the parent being played that the other one already said No.. LOL
This morning when I came home from work and Andrew was getting ready to leave with the kids to take Skylar for a visit Chance asked me if he could have an organge. I figured why not he had a few minutes before he was going to get loaded and it was just a small tangerine. So I started peeling it when he pipes in "Daddy said no orange". So I stop and ask him if he asked Daddy for an orange, he said yes, I asked him if daddy said no, and he said yes. So I went and found Andrew to confirm that he said no to an orange - which he did (why I have no idea as he had plenty of time). So I had to come back and explain to Chance that when mommy or daddy says no to something - that doesn't mean he can ask the other one. That since he did that, he was not allowed to have the orange and he needed to obey Daddy.
Little does he know - if he would have kept quiet about it he would have had the orange. I already had it peeled, I was breaking it up to give it to him, and he would have been LONG done his orange before Daddy came to get him to load up in the car. but I am sure that is a trick he'll learn soon enough. All kids play thier parents against each other, he just needs to learn not to tell the parent being played that the other one already said No.. LOL
Little Miss Houdini
At 14 months we had to switch Skylar to her "big girl bed" (its so cute you should hear her say it!). I swear this child knows how to get out of ANYTHING! You put her in her excersaucer, she climbs out, you have her in her stroller with the straps as tight as it can go - yup she can get out. You have her in high chair with the straps on AND the tray on - and she'll can pull herself out and stand up! I go in after a nap to find Skylar playing on her floor - yup, she climbed out of her crib! I had been saying for a few days prior that we are going to have to switch her as she tries to climb out, pulls herself up and hangs on the edge. But yup - she had escaped. Now it's only a matter of time she figures out how to climb the gate that keeps her in her room, and she can almost do that as well.
At 14 months we had to switch Skylar to her "big girl bed" (its so cute you should hear her say it!). I swear this child knows how to get out of ANYTHING! You put her in her excersaucer, she climbs out, you have her in her stroller with the straps as tight as it can go - yup she can get out. You have her in high chair with the straps on AND the tray on - and she'll can pull herself out and stand up! I go in after a nap to find Skylar playing on her floor - yup, she climbed out of her crib! I had been saying for a few days prior that we are going to have to switch her as she tries to climb out, pulls herself up and hangs on the edge. But yup - she had escaped. Now it's only a matter of time she figures out how to climb the gate that keeps her in her room, and she can almost do that as well.
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
Mommy Guilt
I've been back to work now for a month (I'm not even go there how much I hate it and miss the kids). I had 12 days off for Christmas and as I tucked Chance into bed tonight I told him that mommy is going to be going back to work tonight (I work nights) he just CRYING. It wasn't little sobs, and it wasn't fake. He was full blown crying with big tears running down, his breathing got real heavy and he just kept saying "no mommy", "stay home with Chance", "no work".
What could I do but cry with him! I felt the excat same way as him, and seeing my son so upset just broke my heart. I have been missing so much of him the last month, I leave for work after he is in bed, I come home at 9-930am and then I go to bed to be woken up (by him - oh how I love being woken up by his sweet voice - even if he comes in the room yelling WAKE UP MOMMY, or SURPRISE and pulls my ear plugs out of ears before I even know what is happening). So we have dinner about 5:00 when Chance wake me up and then I only have 2 hours with him before it's bed time. 2 hours a day with my son just heart breaking. I almost prefer the days when Andrew works as I have to get up around 3:00 when the kids get up from their nap so I get to spend an extra 2 hours with him, even if that means I only get 4 hours sleep! The one week I had gotten 24 hours sleep in 5 days (and that was broken up to sleep twice a day, one after work till nap is over, and then once they go to bed for an hour and a bit)
But oh, the mommy guilt was so bad tonight. The feel of his little arms wrapped so tightly around my neck, crying and begging me to stay home! I wish I could have told him of course I will! I won't leave you ever again... All I could say was "'ll be home tomorrow", and work on calming him down, and reassuring that I love him so much!
I've been back to work now for a month (I'm not even go there how much I hate it and miss the kids). I had 12 days off for Christmas and as I tucked Chance into bed tonight I told him that mommy is going to be going back to work tonight (I work nights) he just CRYING. It wasn't little sobs, and it wasn't fake. He was full blown crying with big tears running down, his breathing got real heavy and he just kept saying "no mommy", "stay home with Chance", "no work".
What could I do but cry with him! I felt the excat same way as him, and seeing my son so upset just broke my heart. I have been missing so much of him the last month, I leave for work after he is in bed, I come home at 9-930am and then I go to bed to be woken up (by him - oh how I love being woken up by his sweet voice - even if he comes in the room yelling WAKE UP MOMMY, or SURPRISE and pulls my ear plugs out of ears before I even know what is happening). So we have dinner about 5:00 when Chance wake me up and then I only have 2 hours with him before it's bed time. 2 hours a day with my son just heart breaking. I almost prefer the days when Andrew works as I have to get up around 3:00 when the kids get up from their nap so I get to spend an extra 2 hours with him, even if that means I only get 4 hours sleep! The one week I had gotten 24 hours sleep in 5 days (and that was broken up to sleep twice a day, one after work till nap is over, and then once they go to bed for an hour and a bit)
But oh, the mommy guilt was so bad tonight. The feel of his little arms wrapped so tightly around my neck, crying and begging me to stay home! I wish I could have told him of course I will! I won't leave you ever again... All I could say was "'ll be home tomorrow", and work on calming him down, and reassuring that I love him so much!
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