"I still love you Mommy"

Now that is encouraging words to hear from your 3 year old son as he stands rubbing my leg while I'm puking in the toliet!

Something hit me last night and I went upstiars and I closed the door so the kids wouldn't hear me puking. But it didn't work. Chance came running upstairs and opened the bathroom door. and right away he comes over and starts rubbing my leg, my back and my face (when I wasn't puking). Then he says "that's gross mommy ... but I still love you mommy". My own husband wouldn't even stand with me in the bathroom to comfort me, but it's nice to know that my son will be there for me! :) I ended up puking 3 more times that night and each time Chance would come out of his bed and do the same thing all over again. Then he would go back and tuck me back into bed with my cuddlies. Stroke my face for a few minutes and then go back into his bed.

I HAVE SUCH AN AMAZING SON!

Things are starting to look up


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Andrew had an interview for community living almost 2 weeks ago. He didn't think he got the job b/c it had taken so long for them to get back to him. Well they called today and HE GOT THE JOB! Which is nice b/c he can now quit his job that he works at 6 days (every two weeks) and has to drive an hour one way just to get to work. So this job that is only 15 minutes away!! Plus this job is more hours (28 hrs a week), and the pay is $2 more an hour. He even gets benefits (that is if I wasn't already covered). We are really excited!

Note From Teacher

Some how I missed this note. I looked in his bag when he came home from school but I didn't see this. I guess it was burried under his lunch bag! I also found his necklace too that he's been eating! :)

Chance's first day of school
CHANCE PUTTING ON HIS BACK PACK

SHOWING JUSTIN HIS BACK PACK. JUSTIN IS HIS BUS BUDDY/FRIEND

THERE HE GOES GETTING ON THE BUS

THERE GOES MY BABY ON THE BUS!!!
Well the day has come and gone now. Andrew and I started to get some butterflies about 20 minutes before his bus came. Andrew started talking about homeschool him again. All morning Chance kept asking what time it is, and is it time to go to school yet. he kept looking out the window and talking about missing the bus. Finally we told him it was time and he went running to the front door to put his shoes and back pack on. Then went running outside where he met his friend Justin in our drive way where he showed him his new back pack and telling him that he's going to sit with him on the bus. Then we crossed the street and waited for the bus which Chance had no interest in his mommy and daddy anxiously watching him. He started getting all excited when the bus came that he didn't even want to give mommy and daddy a hug goodbye!

It was so weird watching him loading that BIG bus and watching it drive away knowing you have now lost all control of your son! (well while he's at school that is). Then we had to pick him up at 11:30 but we got there early so that we would be able to watch him play at recess. However, I didn't like what I saw. :( There was Chance off playing by himself! He kept trying to play with the other kids but they didn't want anything to do with Chance. He kept trying to play with the older kids playing soccer (maybe grade 3/4 kids). but they wouldn't wnat to play with a 3 year old! Then we saw him sitting under the slide all by himself playing in the sand. He did see us and waved at us but then kept on playing. So I guess that was a good sign that he didn't come running over to us in the van.

Then when he got home we asked him if he liked school and he said NO! How can a 3 year old NOT like kindergarden? I asked him why and he says that he missed his mommy. I asked him if he wanted to go back to school and he said no that he wants to stay home with mommy. Then while eating dinner tonight I was talking about school again and he told me that the other kids wouldn't play tag with him! Awwwh. Noone would play tag with him. But I must admit he dosen't know how to play with kids his own age. All of his "friends" are atleast 5 years older, some are like 11 years older. So it's not a big idea when he pretends to be a ghost and "woooo" in thier face as they will do it back to him. However, you do that to another 3-4 year old they will think he is strange. We have seen that reaction a few times when he goes to play ground and he tries to play with smaller kids and they just look at him weird. It just breaks my heart!

Pictures taken June 12, 2007

School....already?

I can't believe it's time! In 8 hours my little boy is going to be boarding onto a big yellow bus that will take him away for his first day of school! ACK! I'm not ready for this yet...

Actually - I am kind of excited about him going. I think he is ready and will really like it, it just means that he is no longer my little boy. As he keeps telling us this past week "I'm not little no more" and unfortunately I have to agree with him. He's not. He has turned into such a nice caring boy - that is going to school in 8 hours! He is so excited. He's been talking about it for weeks. He already knows who he is going to be sitting with (his 11 year old friend Justin that lives across the street). He helped me pack his lunch after dinner, I picked him up some special treats. I'll be posting some pictures tomorrow!

(in case you are wondering - out at his school the kids come in for a day in June to meet their teachers, other classmates, learn the school and practice getting on the bus. All kids get bussed to school since we live in the country).

and...and...and... want to know what my "little" boy did today? HE RODE A TWO WHEELER BIKE! ARGH!!! where's my baby? I want him back! I want to change his diaper, I want to bathe him and dress him and carry him into his bed and tuck him in with a lullaby. Not send him off on his own for the first time! He has only stayed a hand full time at families houses/babysitters. Now I just put him off on the bus and hope he gets there OK!

I'm not ready to be a MOM

I can still remember the first time Chance called me "mommy". I loved it and sounded so good to hear. But for some reason in the last few weeks Chance has taken to calling me mom. "thanks mom", "can I go outside mom", "good night mom". I'm not ready to be mom yet. I still want to be mommy! I tell him that he has to call me mommy untill he's 12! Maybe by then I might be ready to be a mom. Right now when he calls me mom I'll correct him and say mommy. (in a playfull manner - I don't get mad at him for calling me mom) But for some reason he is set on me being "my mom" (as he likes to refer to me as).