Good News....Bad News....

Which one do you want to hear first?
Lets start with the BAD:
Our car is a complete write off. (they say there is about $20,000 in damage to the car - we only paid $24,000)

Now the GOOD:
I'm NOT!!!! :) :) :) :) :)


Andrew drove out with me to the interview as for 1. I don't have my license so I can't drive, and 2. Even if I did have it there is no way I am driving!!! But my goodness, you have no idea how many time I talked myself out of panic attacks! In university I used to get them regularly, I've been good lately, but today I was so scared. I freaked out each time Andrew looked back at the kids, if he was going too fast, and esp. When he was driving with ONE hand and had to quickly grab the wheel with both hands when he hit a snow drift or something. I can't sleep! I keep having nightmares that my car just keeps rolling and it won't stop or, the kids are in the car and flips and they are buried and I can't get to them, that I'm dead but I am fighting to stay alive. That I hear the kids screaming in the back seat to save them, and I can't. I just cannot stay asleep very long without a nightmare waking me up. Also, I can't seem to keep my legs warm! It feels like I am always cold. In the hospital they had brought me 12 heated blankets and it didn't matter, I could not warm up,. That feeling is engraved in my head. I'm cold, scared, nervous and thankfully!

More things to add to my thankfully list
1. That people found me, I heard cars drive past me and didn't stop
2. While enroute to the hospital they closed the roads and wouldn't reopen for 24 hours. What if the roads were closed and noone came? The people that stopped had actually stopped and while they were doing a 3-point turn to go back home they saw the car and thought they would check it out
3. That I only rolled once - I could have kept going
4. That I didn't get hyperthermia - although I do have a cold know! I can't stop sneezing, my eyes keep watering and my nose is runny/stuffed. But I can deal with that
5. That I am here writing this post!